You Can Do It!

oil on canvas, by Angela Schleicher
(another example of my mermaid obsession)

This mermaid spoke to me from the canvas. She told me to stop what I was doing. She told me to re-evaluate my life and my career ( or lack of one) and to find the path that I wanted. She told me that it didn't have to be so dull and monotonous and that it could include magenta hair if that's what I so desired.
I listened to her. I polished up my resume. I enrolled in school. I found my new job and I am so happy for having done so. My new company is awesome. I couldn't have imagined finding a place so wonderful even before I finish school. The work that I do now is interesting rather than frustrating and the people that I do have contact with are happy and have intelligent conversations with me rather than the berating, belittling ass-chewing that I used to endure working in customer service. Wow. Had I of realized that this actually was a feasible option sooner, I would have demanded this for myself years ago. I really need to work on my self esteem and recognizing when it is deficient much sooner. Breaking the cycle of poor self esteem and depression can seem insurmountable, but I can attest to the fact that it most certainly can be done. All you need is willpower, love and support, and a touch of motivation, and some encouraging words even if you have to say them to yourself.
Thats it for my corny motivation speech...now go have a nice day!